It's amazing how professionals, in this case a doctor, can make you feel like a child.
Like you haven't spent a long time making the right decision for you.
Like you haven't thought through all the potential consequences of your decision. (Getting my contraceptive implant out.)
I get that there are things you must be asked.
I get that you may know better and want to run tests about some of my problems.
That's fine. Do that. It would be nice to know some answers.
But it won't change the other reasons I want it done.
This is not taken lightly.
It's serious. It's a "Grown Up Decision."
Thankfully, it is my right to stop using a particular form of birth control.
It doesn't feel right for me anymore, even if there is a 'good two years left in it.'
I was pretty firm with the doctor about it. A lot of women talk about having issues getting their doctor to remove it. I think, if I hadn't been so sure and having a pretty hard tone with her, she wouldn't have booked me into getting it removed. It would have been tests this week and 'we will see'. I'm pretty dubious about what she will say to me when I actually go on Friday too...
But I mostly know what I want now. My side effects are not the worst I could imagine, but with it out, I
can regain a sense of what is normal for me. The headaches, the mood
swings, the crying; what of that is me, and what of that is hormonal?
After four years on it, I want to come off of hormonal contraception and
sort myself out. (Not apparently, a good reason for its removal.)
But I still feel like I am being told I am making the wrong choice, because I choose to remove it rather than live with the side effects. This wasn't explicit, but in the tone used, and the having to persuade her that whilst I would have the tests, I still wanted it out, it was implicit.
Does anyone else have problems with Doctors getting what you want/need?
I guess I should just be thankful we have the NHS right now at all and deal with them in a nice, grown up way.
But this: